I keep replaying it
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Sometimes it doesn’t take much. A photo of someone traveling. And there it is. That could have been me. The next thought follows quickly: And before I realize it, I’m replaying it again. Looking for the exact moment. As if somewhere in the footage there is a clean exit sign I failed to see. The strange thing is — it never brings relief. The replay never ends with peace. If I’m honest, when I picture the “unburdened” version of myself, it’s not about travel or money. It’s about silence. The silence of not replaying past decisions. Since I can’t erase the past, it would be great to stop replaying it. I don’t know if that’s something you can decide in a single moment. But I do know this: Replaying it hasn’t changed the outcome. Maybe the unburdened version of me isn’t the one who never made the mistake. Maybe she’s the one who stops holding court. If this stirred something in you, this week’s Resilience Pack goes a little deeper into the idea of “costly vs. wasted.” One page. Three minutes. One wag.
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